17 th MARCH,2007:: For most people it was just another day but for me dis day had special significance..It was my bday..My days of being a teenager had officially ended...I had mixed feelings which were quite evident from my initial reluctance to get up in d morning..i didnt want dis day to start..I forcibly closed my eyes and refused to budge despite my mom's earnest requests..All this time too much was going inside my head and I didnt have d energy to formulate my emotions and thoughts..
I felt old..suddenly it dawned on me that I cud never go back to my careless childish ways.Everything was strangely exciting and scary both at d same time.I know my responsibilities hav increased but so has my reluctance to acknowledge I hav finally grown up.I even knew why it scared me so much.I am an only child..i hav to play d role of both son and daughter and sometimes i wonder whether I wud be able to fulfill d promise I made to my parents and more importantly to myself.
20 long years..come to think of it ,it has passed so quickly..I have come a long way,learnt a lot from people I never expected to learn anything from,made and lost close friends,lost loved ones...Every one I came in contact with taught me something in varying proportions..I cant say that life has always been a very smooth road,rather quite a rocky one at times but everytime I managed to stay right on d track and come out stronger and unscalded from any situation.It changed me,a lot of my innocence has been lost in the process..sometimes I regret it, regret that all this has changed me way too much but I guess I have to accept them as a part of life..being bitter abt it will never solve any problems.
The whole day I got flooded wid phone calls and scraps(400.. dat made we really happy)..It felt wonder ful to know that people remembered...everyone asked me how I was feeling...I said it felt gr8 which wasnt d truth...but wud nyone understand if I said I didnt feel a thing...
The rest of d day passed rather quicker than I wud have liked it to..But i spend it wid my parents..for them I wud be their"little girl "...Oh dad!I wish I could tell you that ur lil grl has grown up now and she is going to make you real proud of her one day...I know I hav hardly seen anything yet and I know I will make plenty of mistakes still and I know my ordeals have just begun but I dont care ..the time has come when I need to shoulder my responsibilities and make them proud..